i'm in a foul mood.
was actually not feeling too bad initially but on the way back home really thought a lot.

today went school and the first debrief was english.
paper 2~ compre.
this is the first tym i ever did so badly.
i got a 4 and that's upon 25.
ya, i tink i'm the lousiest in the whole class.

summary.. i used to pass, maybe like 13 upon 25.
it's a 12 i saw on the paper.
it's not as bad as it can turn out to be.

my hope~ paper 1~ essay and situational writing.
this is my first time that i fucking failed my situational writing.
ridiculous, i seriously dun tink i deserve a fail~ 14 upon 30.
the thing that made me not so bad~ essay~
i wrote about chunnie's love story i saw somewhere plus some of the stuffs i made up.
19.5 upon 30.
it's a B3 and i dun even have to hand in some essay that was meant to be written by those who got B4 to F9.
it jus made me slightly better.


killer chemistry.
i had 23.3 upon 30 for practical. it jus made me feel so anticipated.
i knew i had a C for it.
but the feeling jus got into me.
a 56 upon 100 for overall.
ya, it's a C.
i dun know why but i started crying.
i know that i didn put in as much effort as others like xueli or liyun.
ya, i only studied for chemistry. but i didn study a lot too.
but .. somehow.. the feeling overcame me and i burst out crying.


higher chinese paper one.
the situational writing (ying yong wen) 13 upon 20.
pretty good for me since it's marked by moboey.
38 upon 70 for essay. this sucks.
i expected at least 40~
but what can i do?
paper 2 tml~


tml's paper better make me feel better. if not, i dunnoe what i would do.
if i dun get an A1 for emath or at least B3 for amath, i will be crying again.


and fuck. i told my mum~
she totally ignored me and gave me those bushuang face.
i was actually feeling better after talking to pris, and thanks to her.
i found myself crying before i came online.
will she understand? i doubt.

and sorry pris~ can only see you on jkpoppy meet up this sat~
and i will have to turn up late for DBG outing.
i tink i will ban myself from going out and coming online so often.
i deserve it. or maybe no dongbang for next month.
and ban myself from blogging when i'm in a terribly bad mood.